It's Good To Say Goodbye

I started 2010 as a “ year without expectations.” I am ending 2010 with a hope that I never make that mistake again.

365 days ago, I really had no idea what this year was going to bring. I knew I would finish some Army training and move to Germany. That was about it.

There were a lot of blank pages in my book, and I had no idea where the ink would come from to write a full year’s worth of life. Well, the ink mostly bubbled up from endless hellish places and blotted the pages with ample heartache.

It was a hard year.

And, in a few hours, it will be over. Right now, I force myself to be thankful for the year and all the things I’ve learned. But, if I am honest with myself, I am more thankful for it to be over.

It’s time to move on. Sure, I’ve grown and discovered hard wisdom in these harder times, but now I need closure for my beaten heart.

Farewell, 2010. Take the simple optimism you robbed from me and run away.

As for 2011. I have just one expectation for the year; it will be better than the last.

And it will be.

To my friends, thank you. You were the highlights of this year. You got me through the darkness. I am so grateful.

To my family, you are my rock. When fierce winds were blowing, you were the calm peace. Your arms have always been open for me and this year, I needed their comfort more than ever before. I love you all deeply.

To God, I’m not sure what you are doing, but you are my everything. I’ll follow you where you lead, and I’ll carry my cross the entire way. Blessed be your name.